Part X: Death Lives Always
What a strange life this Michael had that he would choose such rash action. I remember none of living that life save the pictures and images that are held in the records of time.
Deviel was happy to have me back but I was displeased with my experiment. Even when I had the memory of my current self erased to live life as a human, was it really all gone to eternity when all was said and done? Had god cursed the angels by giving them eternity to watch humans meander a world we could never experience or even truly understand?
I had lived mortal lives where I was only a walking shadow because inside I was still the Grim Reaper. I had now lived a life as a human who seemed to experience only misery but none that I could remember as me.
It wasn't me anyway; it was Michael that experienced the misery and from the hall of records and the stories and manifestos he'd left behind, there were always remnants of me that plagued him until his death.
Yes! I had cursed this poor soul to be me but not know it and it had driven him mad. Perhaps the experiment was not all a loss for now I knew for sure that no human could live with the weight of responsibility for which my job entailed.
What powers do I hold as the angel of death? Can I call myself that when the title clearly belongs to Samael? It's interesting how time works in the afterlife. To humans, their little minds can only perceive that Satan was cast out of heaven a long time ago but for us, it could have been yesterday, it could have been tomorrow. For all I know, Satan is in heaven still and in hell at the same time.
Only god is omnipotent and omnipresent and all the "omnis" but existing outside in the vortex between the worlds, we reapers have extrodinary grasp on powers that would seem to be only his. Obviously, we do not have his mighty strength but we do have a presence throughout all eras of recorded time. We can not be at every one simultaneously and we can not know everything that goes on at every point in time but we can go to anywhere we desire in time.
Are we not then gods of death? The Japanese seem to call us Shinegami or death "gods" I am the chief of the death "gods" so in my own way, I am a god supreme.
Hearing my thoughts, Deviel shushed them.
"No Dolphael! Do not think such things. To question the limits of your position in the grand order is what causes one to fall."
"Yes but are we not free as humans are to question our existence?" I replied.
"No, you are not," a voice came down through the void and there before me, I saw him shining with the pure light of god himself.
"Gabriel!" I gasped.
"Deviel, you are right to caution your Grim to such foolhardy thoughts. I come as a warning and to fulfil my duty as the messenger archangel, Dolphael. To question the supremecy of god is herecy and if you do not heed this warning, second to me is Michael.
The irony that the human I had "made in my image" would be my destroyer should I not end my quest.
"Do not misunderstand me, Dolphael. I do not seek to have you end your quest at all. God seeks for all his creation, including the angels to marvel at the beauty of what he has made. The Seraphs are so ecstatic about it that they fly around his head and sing 'holy holy holy' forever."
"What a life..." I mumbled.
"It may not occur to you, brother but being a man who has ascended to the rank of angel is a big deal. You have a unique perspective which is why the burden of man's mortality was placed on you. Samael knows only how to destroy but you are well versed in love, poetry (in more ways than one), sex and have the ability to even go back and forth and to live as one, if you so choose, provided your primary function is preformed. You have been given the pardon and indeed encouragement to have reapers who preform your tasks for you on service of you which is only allowed because they serve god first. You are a lucky creature Dolphael. Do not ask for more blessings than god can allow."
With this speech, he ascended back into heaven. It occurred to me that I could follow him but my reapers would always remain here or on earth; not as humans, mind you, but as shadows of human beings, remnants and in a world out of phase with the one that mattered.
Time cannot dictate how long I sat and thought about what he said but do not children always question their parents? Don't they always want more as is the nature of growing up? Most importantly: aren't parents always scolding their kids?
Deviel was happy to have me back but I was displeased with my experiment. Even when I had the memory of my current self erased to live life as a human, was it really all gone to eternity when all was said and done? Had god cursed the angels by giving them eternity to watch humans meander a world we could never experience or even truly understand?
I had lived mortal lives where I was only a walking shadow because inside I was still the Grim Reaper. I had now lived a life as a human who seemed to experience only misery but none that I could remember as me.
It wasn't me anyway; it was Michael that experienced the misery and from the hall of records and the stories and manifestos he'd left behind, there were always remnants of me that plagued him until his death.
Yes! I had cursed this poor soul to be me but not know it and it had driven him mad. Perhaps the experiment was not all a loss for now I knew for sure that no human could live with the weight of responsibility for which my job entailed.
What powers do I hold as the angel of death? Can I call myself that when the title clearly belongs to Samael? It's interesting how time works in the afterlife. To humans, their little minds can only perceive that Satan was cast out of heaven a long time ago but for us, it could have been yesterday, it could have been tomorrow. For all I know, Satan is in heaven still and in hell at the same time.
Only god is omnipotent and omnipresent and all the "omnis" but existing outside in the vortex between the worlds, we reapers have extrodinary grasp on powers that would seem to be only his. Obviously, we do not have his mighty strength but we do have a presence throughout all eras of recorded time. We can not be at every one simultaneously and we can not know everything that goes on at every point in time but we can go to anywhere we desire in time.
Are we not then gods of death? The Japanese seem to call us Shinegami or death "gods" I am the chief of the death "gods" so in my own way, I am a god supreme.
Hearing my thoughts, Deviel shushed them.
"No Dolphael! Do not think such things. To question the limits of your position in the grand order is what causes one to fall."
"Yes but are we not free as humans are to question our existence?" I replied.
"No, you are not," a voice came down through the void and there before me, I saw him shining with the pure light of god himself.
"Gabriel!" I gasped.
"Deviel, you are right to caution your Grim to such foolhardy thoughts. I come as a warning and to fulfil my duty as the messenger archangel, Dolphael. To question the supremecy of god is herecy and if you do not heed this warning, second to me is Michael.
The irony that the human I had "made in my image" would be my destroyer should I not end my quest.
"Do not misunderstand me, Dolphael. I do not seek to have you end your quest at all. God seeks for all his creation, including the angels to marvel at the beauty of what he has made. The Seraphs are so ecstatic about it that they fly around his head and sing 'holy holy holy' forever."
"What a life..." I mumbled.
"It may not occur to you, brother but being a man who has ascended to the rank of angel is a big deal. You have a unique perspective which is why the burden of man's mortality was placed on you. Samael knows only how to destroy but you are well versed in love, poetry (in more ways than one), sex and have the ability to even go back and forth and to live as one, if you so choose, provided your primary function is preformed. You have been given the pardon and indeed encouragement to have reapers who preform your tasks for you on service of you which is only allowed because they serve god first. You are a lucky creature Dolphael. Do not ask for more blessings than god can allow."
With this speech, he ascended back into heaven. It occurred to me that I could follow him but my reapers would always remain here or on earth; not as humans, mind you, but as shadows of human beings, remnants and in a world out of phase with the one that mattered.
Time cannot dictate how long I sat and thought about what he said but do not children always question their parents? Don't they always want more as is the nature of growing up? Most importantly: aren't parents always scolding their kids?
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