Breaking the mold

Chapter 6: A choice to make

After attaching myself to the tallest energy giving structure on this blue planet at the time, I climbed down through the electrical conduits to observe these strange creatures all around me.

It occurs to me that man could not comprehend what it is like to look at the world as pure energy.  I will attempt to explain but I cannot promise a good explanation.  Man was a vibrant spectrum of color to me.  Heat represented its self as a color yet, those colors could be felt as well.  Blue was a particularly somber and cold feeling and I say this literally.

My physical form was not even able to be seen unless someone happened to have a mass spectrometer on hand. To explain why, I simply need say, "have you ever seen a cell phone signal?  Have you ever seen radio waves?  Have you seen the static electricity and electrical waves that exist all around you and inside your body?  If the answer is no to any one of those questions they you would not be able to see me even though in a certain light, I can see you.

I could see the whole world; feel the world and though one would need a working knowledge of theoretical physics to understand what I was and what I was seeing, it was clear to me that I had stumbled upon something magnificent.

Earth had such vibrant life.  It experienced things with a softer hand than was dealt the Taylorn.  Human beings were so many shades of grey in the metaphysical world and yet they were shades of every other color in the physical one.  It was magnificent the intricacies that Taylorn males and females would have discarded for their complication.

Man was talented and his eccentricity built upon even things that were supposed to simplify his world.  The energy waves on this planet were all so diverse.  On my home world, it is true that we had our pleasantries but everything seemed to be boiled down to such simplicity that waves never crossed and energy was diffused into everything for maximum efficiency.  Humans threw a lot away.

In my travels, I came across a waste heap so large that it was said by locals to be visible from space.  The universe was humongous to a human mind.  While traversing their vast network of computers I learned all about trivialities that they worshipped like the invention of the... I-phone... and important concepts that they tossed out like the invention of soap.  I learned that they had a concept of lying and cheating and people did not have a set place on their planet once they'd chosen a path.  There was nothing so enthralling as the magnificent chaos of mankind.

There were downsides though.  There was war over ideals like patriotism, that my society would dismiss as trivialities.  There was mass breeding and the population swelled.  There was famine and disease as people depended on their earth to take care of them and abandoned their technology to produce results.  They protested things that might help their society grow like the stem-cells that existed in their bodies, and would have thought our society mad for the willing participation in chemical castration after a couple's first two children.

There was emotional decisions made by man like wars to go after one man, and this may have hurt the society at large but he never-the-less excelled at what he was able to control.  Emotional decisions didn't always bring bad things either: the sweet surrender of a man on his knees in front of his god was a practice that if used right and moderated and agreed on by the masses, could make for a beautiful and functioning society.

By this I mean that religion brought conflict when people held it to the standard that one was better than the other or one god/set of gods was more right than another.  The bottom line for a functioning spiritual society was a belief in a higher power than one's self from any origin.  The conflicts over who was right were irrelevant but because of the emotional connection, this brought about conflict over this particular issue in human society.  Not all feared this "god" being who said "thou shalt not kill," and I see this fact as the only way that this concept of religion would be feasible, I suppose that's the nature of choice.

So man was emotional and irrational but he certainly had a magnificent society; it was not as streamlined as the Taylorn home world but certainly as high functioning.

As I pondered these things or rather went over billions of scenarios and tried to calculate a next move (this was the closest thing an energy being could have to emotion) I began to see that I would never be able to understand these creatures more than their logical application until I saw through their eyes.

For weeks I observed them from many different spectra of energy.  I studied their physiology in their computers for 15 years before making the connection on how to become one of them.  The process was dangerous and the conversion nearly impossible but it came down to the synaptic electrical functions in a human brain.  My electrical functions had been scattered and this is what caused me to be the energy being that I was but what if I had a template?  A guide to put them back together?  The bottom line was there in plain sight but what the human mind could not configure, I could.

The only problem was that an adult mind was completely wired and had no wiggle room to reconfigure the synaptic impulses.  This is where I found out that I would have to start from the beginning, I would have to be born as a child and do the entire human life from beginning to end.  There was no guarantee that I would survive when that human body left this world but I suppose I would have to wire a trigger in my mind to remind me of what I was so that I could rebuild the matter transporter that would give me back eternal life before this ephemeral human one burned out.